Thursday, March 8, 2012
break my heart
my heart is burning for the children in uganda and the horrific sitauations they are being forced into because of a corrupt leader named joeseph kony. Every fiber of my being is crying out for justice to be done, for the reign of the kingdom to be restored, for all the wrongs to be made right. i am left utterly speechless at the immensity and density of the great dimensions of evil and injustice in this world—this evil is simply paralyzing.
where has my life been these past few months??
have i been only engaged in myself, too consumed with my own life and problems, too weighed down with my insecurities, too focused on my ever revolving thoughts that i could not take my eyes off of myself in order to see god or other people?
sadly, the truth is, I realize that i have been wasting too much time looking at myself and the suffering in my life that i could not notice the cries of another. There are so many people in darkness, so many people in need of hope and light, so many people in need of authentic love, so many people undergoing extreme hardship and pain. life is not worth living until you are living it for a cause that is bigger than yourself. a life that has not been given up everything is not worthy of gaining anything—to die is to gain, and in dying one can truly live as christ lived, because to live is christ.
father i want to live for a cause that is so much bigger than myself. life in abundance is truly a life that is poured out onto you and onto others; it is not a life in which the oil in the alabastar jar is selflishly kept intact and unbroken. help me live a life that is completely poured out to you. help me not to withhold even a single drop of oil in the jar, but help me to willingly break my life so that I can be wholly poured out onto you and be used to the greatest capacity. help me to be a broken and empty vessel for you to use in whatever way you please. help me not to hold on to any of me, but for the sake of your glory, let me empty myself i order to gain all of you.
I want more of you and less of me. as you break my life, would you also break my heart for what breaks yours. would everything i am be for your kingdom’s cause alone. would you help me to seek justice, love mercy, and walk humbly before you all the days of my life. open my eyes to see, open my ears to hear, open my mind to know, open my heart to feel the sufferings of others in this world.
Father, i need so much more of you, and so much less of me.
***please, watch this invisible children video and support the cause for justice—>http://s3.amazonaws.com/kony2012/kony_5.html